Zeke Worthy Discovers Nativica

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Words and art by Heidi Hansen, copyright2016

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Part 1

We open this book with a crisis. We open this book with a sound, a horrible crack and cackle carreening through the air and up against the sunrise attic windows. Rattling the glass, blowing out the latches and bursting open the only window of that cerebral topspace of The Muse Academy Swirling gusts of blackish moldy fumes that took shape in the hidden sky only because the sun was starting to rise.

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“He’s not here,” growled the Head Vacuus in disgust and fury.

“Where did he go?” shrieked the icycle sharp Vaccus.

“I hate you!” yelled the thick stubby Vacuus, slamming the work table — the artist’s work table — against the far wall, scattering paints and brushes and pens and books and a clock and a telescope and the cat who had been sleeping there, now perched high in the rafters with her fur sprayed out like a spiny sea urchin. She hissed dewey spurts in confrontation.

“He’s where you will not get him,” calmly stated the Attic Keeper from a resting chair near the fireplace. The small glowing burm had not gone out when the Vacuus burst in, but had been reduced to flickers and twinkles.

“Curses!” shouted the Head Vacuus and started to leave out the open window. But then, stopped briefly and turned sneers towards the Attic Keeper. “But we will, you know. heh he heh heh.. We will. We always do.”

The Vacuus swooshed out through a slurping black hole which briefly sucked the oxygen out of the attic. For a moment, everything in the room, including the cat, became muted as the sound, textures and colors of the artist’s attic room became mute. Almost frozen although it was not cold. Just empty. Just a heavy pervasive nothingnessin the wake of the Vacuus.

The Vacuus storm could be heard in the distant outdoors, traveling east over the lower grounds of the Muse Academy campus, towards the woods in the distance.

“Please, Zeke,” the Attic Keeper murmered to herself as she winced and grimaced, closed her eyes tightly and raised her head toward the sky. Her hands caught the cat jumping down onto her lap. “Keep safe.”

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Zeke Worthy loved storms. Although his task today was weighty, serious, perhaps even life-threatening, he began his adventure journey with a certain merriment that is common to storm lovers. A tingling sense of curiosity lifted his steps. An appreciation for the spontaneous unknown kept his boots moving at a brisk pace.

Electrity zinged in the air, over long, reaching branches of the Big Leaf Maple. The lacework of lichen and mosses that grew on them twitched a bit.

Then, a black form suddenly caught the back of Zeke’s head with a swirling cusp, and briefly he turned sharlply cold and stiff. All was not well with this storm. He had just been brushed by the tail end of a Vacuus and it was time to flee.

“Quickly now. Not dilly dally. Get to safety. The safety of the woods ahead. Quickly, Zeke, move fast and with wits about you,” the Attic Keeper murmered over the open sketchbook in front of her. She sat at her worktable, now, preparing a quill pen and ink bottle to draw apatch of Fairy Slipper.fairyslipperclump

The Attic Keeper was talking to Zeke. From the Attic, with windows closed and latched, unseen and unrecognized even to Zeke, her presence and communication was felt and heard through the most powerful tool — sometimes a weapon — an artist has. Her sketchbook.

The Attic Keeper had set her worktable straight, fed the cat a can or reassuring tuna, and was sitting at it with her sketchbook open and iluminated by a hearty, warming morning fire. Pages of native plant flowers, root studies, bulbs and leaves and trees and berries and birds and warblers, woodpeckers, squirrels and frogs were stacked up on her work table.trilliumovatumbulbpacificdogwoodcommoncamasvinemapleiristenax

She turned to a fresh page in her sketchbook, and there was Zeke, in real time, running down the path with one hand holding his hat on. Flailing with his walking stick, backpack of sandwiches and sketchbook and pens, running down a trail over the campus yards and towards the woods.

The Attic Keeper drew on the sketchbook page. She drew an extension of the path, and with the quill pen drew in pebbles and ferns, then a strong hedge. A thick Blueblossom hedge, with lattice work of Western Red Cedar for a canopy overhead.blueblossompath

“Take this path, Zeke.” She added a clucking squirrel in front of the Blueblossom. Seemed to pull Zeke along in the direction of safety, towards a larger woods behind the hedge.westerngraysquirrel

Frightened and brave at the same time, knees quivering but eyes roaming ahead, Zeke followed the pull. The silent voice that spoke to his feet with a genuine friendliness, as though he were being invited to a grand party of old friends, feasts of foods and platters of tasties made just for him.

Odd, he mused to himself. Am I running from the Vacuus, or going to a party?

Then, there was a hedge. And a doorway of buzzing bees feasting on the Blueblossom. They let him pass through.blueblossompath

Into Nativica. The place he had set out to find, but did not know how to reach. Suddenly, here he was. Here, in Nativica, Zeke would find the solution he had set out to find.peaceablepond

“Welcome to Nativica, Zeke,” said the Attic Keeper with a sigh of relief, speaking to the image of Zeke on the sketchbook page. . “Now, to find the solution that will save The Muse Academy. Make it possible for muse students to return. Get back the Ideas that The Vacuus stole. So we can have commerce again using our ideas.

“I will help you, Zeke. You don’t know me, and you don’t know I’m here for you through this sketchbook. Nobody knows I am here in the Attic. Everyone thinks the buidling is empty. Nobody knows you stayed on, either. Hiding out in empty classrooms and empty dorm rooms trying so hard to think of a way to save the Muse Academy. Keep it open. So the Muse students can return.

“Here we are together, trying to do the same thing, but unknown and unseen to each other. I’ll help you through this sketchbook. But, Zeke, there is someone else who knows where you are. The Vacuus.”

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Part 2

Nativica knew, too. The native plants and animals and a hodge-podge of habitats of the North West are fully observant and responsible for their woodswalkers.

They perfectly knew Zeke was here.

Sparkling dewdrops from native northwest ferns — the Sword, Lady,  Maidenhair fern — splashed over him. The fern menagerie giggled at Zeke’s surprise.ladyfern1 maidenhairfern

At the shadowy roots of a Doug Fir tree grew luscious clumps of Trillium. Their little white petals, like nuns’ habits, the forest floor their monestary, nodded to Zeke in approval.trilliumovatum

A small grove of Paper Birch unrolled the creamy paper scrolls on their tree trunks and invited him, by name, to write a poem on those fine stationaries.paperbirchtrees

“You can talk?” Zeke wasn’t all that surprised, you know, that the plants of Nativica could talk, but he was surprised they knew his name.

A bunch of bright Red Osier Dogwood, that were hugging the banks of a salmon spawning stream, said softly, “Of course we know your name. We know just about everything about children of creation. We’ve been around a long time, you know. Native plants of the north west. We’ve been here forever. We’re old pro’s.”

“Why are you whispering?” Zeke bent down close to the Red Osier Dogwood, and could see, nestled by its roots sitting in the streambank, vibrant pink pink salmon laying their eggs.

“The eggs. We must be still for the eggs. Little air bubbles get trapped by my root system around the eggs, and my roots keep them snug in this stream.”salmonrun

Suddenly —

“WWOOOSH!” A thundering rattle shook the ground and trunks of the trees. A chill, the kind that sticks to your neck and locks your jaw, grabbed the air around Zeke.

The Vacuus. Trying to get in.vacuus

They did not.

“No worries, Zeke,” said a chipper voice. Nativica calmed and returned to being the balm of wild orderliness it was before.

Wild is right! That chipper voice belonged to a bike!

Free Range Bike, from Portland, Oregon,  leaned up against a Paper Birch Tree. He nodded a hello to Zeke, and another nod to a frog sitting in a paper coffee mug with a funky logo that said, “Hilla Beans Coffee.”freerangebike

“You okay, Barista? Zeke, meet Barista, my partner,” said Free Range bike. “She just finished putting on a training workshop for the frogs that live here in Nativica. They are learning new techniques of measuring toxins in the air as well as the water.”

“Frogs do that?” asked Zeke.

“Oh sure.” Free Range beamed at Barista with pride. “That’s their job. They’re skin is so porous — so very thin – air and water toxins can easily be absorbed, and measured with it. They report back to Barista, and Barista reports any kind of polution to the Big Guys in Portland. The human children of creation whose job it is to keep air and water clean for everyone. Frogs and people both and all in between!”

“Wow. Never knew!” Zeke shook his head with information overload. Far off, far away from Nativica but so loud he could still hear it, roared a Vacuus storm, angry at their failure.

Like any good woodswalker facing a violent storm, Zeke sat down to write a poem. Not wanting to peel away the Paper Birch’s lovely curled bark, he opened his sketchbook and took out a pen.

As soon as his pen met the page, Nativica started talking.

The old Doug Fir croaked, “Words change things, Zeke.”

“Comfort changes things,” said a native northwest Snowshoe rabbit, pure white all over and fluffy and twitching her nose as she sniffed at a Fairy Slipper. This tiny little native northwest orchid is the first to bloom in spring, sometimes poking right out of the snow!winterrabbitwoods

“Confidence changes things,” stated Tall Oregon Grape.talloregongrape

“You can change things.” Whispered the Attic Keeper.

She watched Zeke’s pen draw and write words that danced over like Glowbugs and took the form and texture and pattern of a poem.

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Cheering happily, a great throng of twinkling lights flew up and around Zeke, his sketchbook and took his hat and flew off with it. Zeke gave chase after the Glowbugs with a merry laugh.

“Hey, give me back my hat!” Zeke ran up a rock to grab at the mischevious Glowbugs. Some were stiped, some were polka dotted, some had round wings, some had triangle wings, some had straight antennae, some had curly-cue antannea. They could not be caught but tossed back the hat.

Zeke jumped down off the rock. “You’re not native northwesterners!” he scolded the Glowbugs with a smile. “You’re just scamp -erners!”

Words change things. That stuck in Zeke’s mind.

A spindly, bending Ponderosa Pine branch handed Zeke a few pinecones to take home. “Pinecones change things, too.” she said. “Plant some where you live. Sandy soil will do fine.”ponderosapinebranchcone

Several kinds of seeds, bulbs, rhyszomes and nuts were gently tucked into Zeke’s backpack by the native plants — and the Western Gray Squirrel that had met him outside tthe Blueblossom hedge.

The squirrel told Zeke, “I think you came here to find a way to save your school. You can save us, too, at the same time. So we can be here in the future as long as we have evolved here in the past.”squirrel-running-on-cedar

“Adapt and evolve.” Zeke mused to himself, as he plucked a handful of small native northwest blackberries and popped them in his cheeks. “Now, there’s a solution.”

The native northwest Wild Strawberry raised its hand up at Zeke. “Us, too! Eat us, too! We are so fresh and delicious, you can even taste the clean stream water we drink!”strawberrybirdbutterfly

Old Doug Fir said, “Observe all around you. We are all children of creation. It’s just in us to survive and be even better than before. Even if grimey greedy foul forces try to suck the life out of you, you’ll find a new way of adapting and evolving.”

“Unless there’s too many toxins,” Barista cautioned. “There’s only so much a living thing can adapt to.”

“You can do it, Zeke,” Free Range Bike said. “Don’t let the Vacuus tell you who you are. Only you get to say who you are. What you create. Your ideas, what you want to do with them, how you can contribute to your ecosystem. Don’t forget, you are also one of this universal and equalizing gift: Our planet.”

And, from a distance, the Attic Keeper whispered, “The Vacuus can’t really do anything significant to you, Zeke.  Whatever they do can only be temporary because no matter what you lose or is taken, you always have your Self.  That remains.  Whatever you had to begin with, that’s where you begin again.”

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Part 3

The Vacuus were howling closer now, and the sun was setting lower in the sky.

“Better get home, now, Zeke,” said Free Range Bike, “C’mon, I’ll give you a ride.”

Zeke said his thank you’s to all, and was made to promise to return very soon to Nativica. Especially to attend the Fall Leaf contest.

Free Range Bike checked the Hilla Beans coffee cup (must be a Seattle store, Zeke mused to himself) to see if Barista was situated safely, which she was. He motioned for Zeke to climb on his seat. “Remember, I do the pedaling,” said Free Range, “but hang on ’cause we’re gonna make a beeline home for you. Stay outta range of those filthy freaky whisps out there.”

A few Glowbugs lit their path home out of Nativica, as the Attic Keeper — cracking open a can of tuna for the cat — watched from her sketchbook.

“Nicely done,” she said to Zeke. “You didn’t need me so much after all!”

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Free Range bike was hufffing and pufffing a bit as they rode up to the steps of the empty, quiet, darkened Muse Academy.

“My tires are a little flat.” he wheezed to Zeke. “Any chance you gotta tire pump in there?”

“They’re might be one up in the attic,” Zeke replied as he hopped off and skipped up the front steps. “I’ll go see. Be right back.”

Zeke zoomed up Four flights of stairs, pulled himself up the wall ladder to the attic trapdoor, and hoisted himself up and over. When he stood up, Zeke found himself face to face with an artist.

An artist holding out a big red tire pump. “Will you be wanting this, by any chance?” she said with a grin.

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As they got to know each other that evening, over tuna sandwiches and cold milk and honey crisp apples and a comforting fire, Zeke and the Attic keeper hatched a plan to save the Muse Academy.

It involved unwrapping and dusting off an old paper printing press from the storage shed.

And, what Zeke discovered in his backpack.

When he opened his pack to show the Attic Keeper the seeds and bulbs and cones and nuts given to him from Nativica, he found several stacks of worn-out, bulging, frayed sketchbooks. The Muse’s ideas that had been stolen by the Vacuus! Given to him by Nativica!

“Somebody loves you.” The Attic Keeper looked at Zeke as he spread out the volumes of stories, poems, plays, songs, inventions, innovations, recipes, dance routines and drawings and doodlings and all manner of simple words from many languages sliding around.

All of that, became a book.

Stacks of beautiful, shiny new books. Books with drawings. Color drawings.

And guess who delivered those stacks of new tomes to the independant bookstores around the cities of the north west?

You gottit! Free Range Bike. With his partner Barista doing the geo-thermal -navigation.

The commerce from those booksales funded the Muse Academy from then on. The Muse students returned, learned, graduated and went out to plant the seeds of talent and knowledge that had helped them so much.

Zeke planted the seeds of Nativica. Everywhere that was sensible, and where he couldn’t plant seeds of plants, he planted seeds of knowledge and inspiration.

He taught everyone he could about native plants so they became popular and protected. So they can be used in the manner they were made for: To protect, preserve and inspire the children of creation and make conscious, careful wooksdwalkers of us all.

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______________________________by Heidi D. Hansen, copyright2016, all rights reserved. Permission required to reproduce. email: dog.hotel.hansen@gmail.com .

 

Nativica: Questions and Answers

by Heidi Hansen, October 18, 2016.  Art and text copyrighted. Permission required to reproduce.

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Q: What is Nativica?

A: Nativica is a place where children woodswalk through native plant art and learn to identify the native plants of the northwest, how native plants help the animals of northwest habitats, and how they, as persons, are an important part of this ecosystem. Nativica is a place created through northwest botanical art that will inspire children to be conscious and careful woodswalkers. To observe the details and nuances of native plants, and themselves in that experience, to curate and conserve their own carbon footprint in northwest nature.aaa1nativicanativicagarden

Here are a few examples of the native plants you will experience in a northwest woodswalk:

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Q: What is this plant and can people eat the berries?

A: Kinnikinnik is a sturdy evergreen groundcover that is commonly used to landscape along parking lots and city sidewalks. The berries are toxic to humans but nourish birds nicely through winter.

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Q: Why is this called Tall Oregon Grape?

A: There are three types of Oregon Grape. This Tall Oregon Grape grows uupward like a shrub, the other two stay low and creep along the ground. Tall Oregon Grape is evergreen, with sharp leaves. The sky-blue berries are very tart and early pioneers had to use lots of sugar to make them into jams.

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Q: Where is this watery place? Can I go there?

A: Ellsworth Springs is just that, a natural springs located in SW Vancouver, Washington. It is surrounded by a large evergreen forest and a terrific place to woodswalk. In this painting of the springs, you will see Western Red Cedar dipping its roots in the water, a bright yellow Skunk Cabbage right in the water, Vine Maple trees, Sword Fern, and Pacific Ninebark. All of these thrive right at Ellsworth Springs!

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Q: Why does this leaf have so many colors?

A: This is a Vine Maple leaf just beginning to turn its colors in the month of October. Vine Maple leaves can turn bright red at high altitudes or a glowing orange at lower levels.

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Q: Why don’t I see this flower very often?

A: Our native Irises are small in their flower, and not commercial showy types of flowers. But, they are very precious and beautiful and so surprising when you see them there. This is Oregon Iris, which blooms in June, and is pale lavendar and delicate blooms.

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Q: Are native Iris fragile?

A: No. Like most native plants, they are strong, rugged, and adapted to survive many changes in environment. This is Iris tenax, larger and more deeply purple than the Oregon Iris, and has an extensive root system that holds it firmly in place.

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Q: How do ants and Trilliums help each other out?

A: In the very middle of the white flower part of the Trillium is a sac of sticky sweet liquid that ants love to eat! They get it all over themselves, and the pollen of the flower sticks to it. When ants travel back home, they leave a trail of the pollen that starts new Trilliums in new places.

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Q: Is it true that if you pick a Trillium, it will die and never grow back?

A: No. Deer eat Trillium tops all the time, and moles even nibble at the rhyzomes (which helps Trilliums sprout new flowers out of the same rhysome). If the Trillium is healthy, the flower will come back the nnext year. If it is weak, or not in a good spot, it might take a couple off years to flower again, but it will not die. Trillium rhyzomes have a robust underground life!

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Q: Why is the Garry (or, White) Oak tree so important?

A: Our native Western Grey Squirrel and our native Scrub Jay depend on the acorns of this tree as a main meal. Our native White Tailed Deer eats the bark. Garry Oaks take a long time to grow and are very rugged but in the last 20 years have had a blight that reduced its population, which hurt our native animal populations.

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Q: Why is there green on this tree bark?

A: A Scrub Jay is bursting out of a fall-colored Big Leaf Maple. Big Leaf Maple loves wet forests and so moss ggrows on its moist bark, as well as lichen and these provide rich beds for little licorce fern to grow on. The leaves of BIg Leaf Maple are yellow in Fall.

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Q: What kind of tree is this Western Gray Squirrel eating on?

A: Garry Oak, of course — you can tell by the leaves — they have rounded edges. You will see here that an Oak in a moist woods will grow moss and fern like the Big Leaf Maple, although Oaks really like dry areas, too.

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Q: How do native plants help our Salmon runs?

A: Red Osier Dogwood, seen here with its blue-ish berries, grow near river banks and help keep the banks from eroding. Also, their roots grow down into the water and when the water swooshes by it, churns up oxygen bubbles. This oxygen and root shield nourishes and protects salmon eggs when they spawn. Paper WIllow trees and Ginger and Strawberry help riverbanks stay strong.

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Q: Why is Common Camas such an important native flower?

A: Although the flower is a lovely light blue color, and prized for it’s simple beauty, in the history of First Nation Peoples of the northwest — in particular the Nez Perce Tribe — Camas bulbs provided a major food staple. The bulb was dug up using a specialized paddle. These native tribes knew how to dig up the Common Camas, not it’s toxic twin named “Death Camas.” They had culinary techniques for mashing the starchy Camas bulbs and cooking them into hearty loaves. When Sacagawea guided the hungry and fatigued Lewis and Clark expedition west over the Rocky Mountains, they were greeted with luscious flowing fields of beautiful blue Camas flowers. For Sacagawea, this meant home. For the Lewis and Clark party, it meant a food source that would help them survive their journey in an unknown land.

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Q: How is Pacific Dogwood different than Red Osier Dogwood?

A: They are cousins, but Red Osier is a low-growing shrub and Pacific is a tree. Pacific Dogwood attracts bees and butterflies like crazy! Look closely and you’ll see that Pacific Dogwood flowers out in three skinny branches, like fingers, from the main branch. And the flower petals have a distinct curl that makes a ballet dance when they catch a summer breeze.

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Q: Why don’t I ever see Fairy Slipper in the woods?

A: You may not have your nose to the ground. Fairy Slipper, Calypso bulbosa, is our unique native NW orchid and she is tiny and grows in the mossy root base of big Douglas Fir trees. She is no faint of heart! Our native orchid is the first flower to bloom in spring, and that means in early February when there is still snow on the ground!

 

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Q: How can I help keep our ecosytem healthy?

A: By enjoying it. By being gentle with it, keeping it clean and safe for the plants and animals that grow there, including yourself. Walking and biking instead of driving, inventing new ways of using old things, and planting native plants (in this painting you will see Orange Honeysuckle that attracts hummingbirds, and Blue Heron that eat the fish in the river. Can you find the dragonfly?).

_______________What’s next in Nativica?  The origin story!  How Zeke Worthy braves a vacuus storm to look for a solution and finds Nativica and the magic of an Attic Keeper’s sketchbook.  But, it’s his woodswalk that becomes heroic, and it begins with a poem about ferns.

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Come Take A WoodsWalk In Nativica

nativicagardenaaa1nativica“Nativica” poster, 22″ x 22″ featuring 30 native plants and animals and habitats of the pacific north west.  $45.00 plus shipping, using major credit cards through http://www.paypal.com.  Email Heidi at dog.hotel.hansen@gmail.com to inquire.

Q: What is Nativica?
A: Nativica is a place in nature and in your mind where you can go to
experience the wonder and ruggedness, simplicity and grandeur, the
texture of history and peacefulness of the present moment through
native north west plants and their habitats. Most importantly, it is
where children can learn the importance of native plants, how they
help keep our planet healthy, and to be inspired to be careful,
conscious woodswalkers.

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Come and take a walk with me through Nativica.  Observe small things,  wait for hidden surprises, be curious and look in between, under and over.  Feel the cool mist on your cheeks, the rough texture of tree bark.  Watch the branches sway overhead in the breeze and dig your toes into the moss clumps at the roots.  Notice the patterns of plants that tend to grow together.  Learn how plants and animals help each other thrive.  Reflect on your place in the ecosystem, and ask how you can learn something new each day to restore, repair, rebirth our universal, equalizing One Great Gift:  Our planet.

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Welcome to the native plant woods, landscaped through my art and writing.  The Nativica poster can be purchased with major credit cards through http://www.paypal.com.  Cost: $45.00 plus a bit to ship.  Individual digital images with permission to print as desktop stationary are $12.00 and delivered via email.  Contact Heidi at  dog.hotel.hansen@gmail.com to purchase or inquire about specific species in art.

Thank you,

— Heidi Hansen

“Nativica” and all art/text you see here is by Heidi D. Hansen, copyrighted, and requires permission to use or reproduce.

Pain Management Through Meditation

48093_509659179085479_168254671_nContemplative practice can help with chronic pain.  Long-term opiate pain medication is no longer an option for many pain sufferers, and developing daily habits of meditation becomes a life raft amidst the misery.

I recommend the daily use of at least 3 different types of meditation for:

  1.  Anticipation of pain emotions;
  2. .Avoidance of pain behaviors;
  3.  Getting through acute pain;
  4.  Prevention of worsening pain;
  5.  Spiritual acceptance, surrender and cultivating meaningfulness.

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Some of the contemplative practices I recommend are:

  1.  Past-present-future-present imagery;
  2.  Trancework;
  3.  Body concentration;
  4.  Fluid breathing;
  5.  Focused breathing;
  6.  Word flow;
  7.  Biofeedback;
  8. Creative recovery.

I offer meditation coaching for pain management online and in person (Vancouver-Portland area) , individually or in small groups.  My fee is $55.00 per hour and I offer a sliding scale to those on a tight budget.  I can take major credit card payments online through safe and confidential http://www.paypal.com.  Email me at hhansenma@yahoo.com, or call me at (360) 609-2646 for more information.  Thanks, and be well!  – Heidi Hansen, M.A.

Know Your Vacuus

In the fictional Muse Academy, the dark forces known as The Vacuus try to suction out their ideas, their creative process and the life of their creative inspiration.muse9

This happens in real life, too. People, places and things can suction out your creative inspiration and deaden the process of cultivating your ideas and motivations.vacuus

Creative persons must keep their process and product safe. Keep it in their ownership. Manage the boundaries of destructive forces in their public and private lives.  Prevent destructive attitudes, talk, choices, relationships from entering your creative spaces.

To do that, you must first know and identify “vacuus” in your life.  What is your “vacuus”?   What is your personal and public plan to safeguard your Muse and ideas?muse2I am available online or in person to provide creativity coaching for individuals or small groups.  My fee is $55.00 per hour and I take major credit cards. Email me at http://www.hhansenma@yahoo  or dog.hotel.hansen@gmail.com to discuss your creativity coaching. Thanks! — Heidi Hansen

 

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HIDING : A one-act/one-woman play

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DSW (Disappearing Social Worker) narrates an introduction to our play:

DID (Dissociation Identity Disorder, formerly called Multiple Personality) is about hiding. In plain sight. One of many, stuck out there on the front of the stage, interfacing, accomplishing tasks, while the others of many stay secluded and shielded from the blows the front one will undoubtedly endure. Taking one for the team, so to speak.

But to never be able to live, to be out in the open with others, never interfacing and taking it for your own instead of for the team — never to have an experience that you can call all your own — that is the indelible pain, the incredible loneliness of DID.

Just for one day, one afternoon, one hour, on one small street, let’s give them their chance.

Scene: It’s a New York City street, just one block long, but crammed with as many stores of as many different types as one could ever want. You could live on this block all your life, never leave it, and always have whatever you needed.

Voice calls out, “We’re lost!  Anybody know where we are?  Where are we? What street is this?  How did we get here? Anybody recall the path?  So we can backtrack on it to get back to where we were?”

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Scene:  Lining this one block, there is a shop for everyone, for every want or need. Funky coffee shop for CW (Celtic Woman), who writes there, and where Penny (3 years old) can get a cinnamon cookie — or bettter yet, the kind in animal shapes with brightly colored frosting.

There is a walk-in chapel where Sophie can kneel and pray amongst a fld-out table of candles.

There is a drop-in community mental health social club, where Lucy can go and sit and pick up brochures on free counseling resources and take a stab at the 1000 – piece puzzle made up of exactly 914 pieces.

A music shop where used and new instruments are sold and repaired and tuned. Where sheet music can be bought and likely musicians can try out their tunes for each other. That’s where Marcus wants to be the most, but alas, he is stuck with babysitting Penny and Jodie and Sandie – who need their hands held tightly so they don’t wander off and get lost or kidnapped, and making sure everyone has their bus tickets in good shape and in the right pocket.

Marcus would also like to visit the internet cafe, to finish up and click and send away his college grant application. But, if he hasn’t time to practice his guitar or drums or clarinet, how will he ever have time to study at college? And how would the Little Ones ever feel safe enough to get to sleep without his lullabyes at night?

And when, by the way, exactly, is night? When someone is asleep the others are awake. There is always someone awake, no matter the light or dark of outside or the am/pm of the clock. Time is static and yet so elastic it stretches like worn out boxer shorts and binds just as well.

This is life in the Hiding.

Hiding in plain sight. Everyone, yet no one.

Scene: The empty NYC street has taken on a few features of a living/dining room of a sort, on the sidewalk, which is clearer than the street front of shops which has become somewhat faded. CW sits at the table, typing on a laptop perched on her knees, a large empty mason jar on the table. A loud and intrusive banging as a door slams from somewhere, and is kicked and cursed. Medina is home.

Medina: “So what if I’m angry all the time?” she yells in anticipation, as if she has already been accused of a temper by someone anticipating emotional triage.

Lucy, 15 years old and plump, wearing a French policeman’s hat, appears out from in-between 2 shops and slumps down at the table, head in arms. “I’m so depressed.  Everything is dead inside.  I can’t go to school today. Everyone is gone away.”

Medina: (Ignoring Lucy) “If it weren’t for me, you’d be nothing. Still stuck in that gray cement hospital room, on a sticky rubber gurney being pumped with pinatas of medications and used as a guinnea pig to see how they worked. At least I got you outta there and got you your own apartment and a job and a career. So don’t crap with me tonight. I’m in no mood.”

Lucy: (Getting up suddenly and fleeing back into the row of shops where she came out of) “ooohh – no hospital! Nope! No no no hospital!”

“You’re right, Medina,” DSW says gently but firmly, entering the door with recyclable bags filled with vegetables and granola bars. “You did, that and more. And I am so so happy that you did. We can all have a life now, because of you, we all have a life.”

“Then what the crap is all the fuss about?” Medina charges, trying to get a verbal fight going to ease her rage.

CW looks up from her laptop and remarks, “It’s so the Missionaries don’t get us.”

“Ugh!” spews Medina in rapid answer. “Not them again. Oh hell not the Missionaries — what??? Are they here, now? Has Sophie been praying again? What, she wants to go back to church?? Again?? No way! I’ve learned my lesson on that one — hasn’t she??”

Penny pipes up, crumbs sticking to her lips of pink and robin’s – egg blue frosting, “But my like sunday shool. We get to sing songs, and hab juice.”

Lucy steps out of the shop fronts wearing an artist’s beret hat. She hovers by the table and speaks in monotone: “I’m so depressed. Can’t move. Can’t move my arms to paint or draw or anything.”  And she slumps back and is gone.

DSW pokes around in the grocery bags. “Marcus, can you take over here, please? I’ve got a client scheduled and I’m bussing it — oh, has anyone got a spare bus ticket I can use? With a round-trip? I’m not sure when I’ll be home. There’s a can of carrot juice in here, and please please eat the dried cranberries — we don’t want another urinary tract infection, allright? And the organic radishes and  carrots — eat the tops, too – they’re filled with the good stuff.””hideset3

She dissapears and so does everyone else, ducking as far away from Medina as they can.

“God, you’re a bitch,” CW sneers at Medina as she grabs a bottle of cheap wine out of the fridge and fills the mason jar with it. “Why don’t you just get lost. My life is just fine without you. Probably even better.”

Medina: “You don’t have a life. You don’t even have a person.”

CW: “I have more of a life than you do, Medina. I’ve got more of a Self than you ever will. It’s rich and deep and textured. Not just one big tantrum repeating itself over and over. I have a self. I’m someone.”

“Hmf!” Medina sneers and laughs. “You’re who the liquor says you are. You’re who the church says you are. You’re who your mother said you were, and your father demanded you to be, and what your uncle made you into. The hospital says you’re crazy, so you’re crazy. You let it happen. Then you just go off and hide.”

CW sighed, “Bitch. Child porn isn’t so bad compared to living with you, Medina. No — wait — that’s too low. Sorry. That’s way too low, even for you. I’m sorry.”

Lucy appears, wearing an English gray felt tophat:  “I’m going out for a job interview.” and exits to the stage side.

Scene: Silence. Then, a soft melody floats over the stage played by an accoustic guitar, from somewhere.

Medina sighs, lays her head back of her shoulders and squeezes her fingers into her eyes, as though squeezing out a sponge.

“Wish I could feel something besides mad. Wish I could read, concentrate — get away from all this crap — get somewhere else, maybe read some of the books you’ve written, maybe then I’d know.”

“Know what?”

“I don’t know. I don’t know what I don’t know. Just something. Something that’s missing. Not hollow or empty, just something not there.”

Marcus pipes up, “The Missionaries are knocking. Are we home?”

“No!” Medina and CW shout out together, then look at each other and gurgle a laugh.

CW: At least we agree on that. Want a drink?

Medina: If I get the bottle. You can have what’s left in your glass.”

SCENE:  Penny, Jodie, Tommy and other Little Ones quietly appear coming out of the shops and Marcus silently, gracefully, rolls out sleeping bags for them on the sidewalk behind CW and Medina. Quietly, the Little Ones curl up in their cozies and Marcus sits beside them strumming his guitar. We hear the lullaby guitar melody in the background.

Lucy enters from the stage side where she left, wearing an Arabian Sheik’s headdress. “Too depressed to work. So depressed, can’t concentrate. Can’t do the cash register. Too much stimulation.  CW, can you get Jodie her cookie. I’m too depressed.”

CW (to Lucy):  “It’s Penny who wants the cookie.  You’re her Big Girl, Lucy, you do it.  I’m you’re Big Girl, and I get to say. Even if you’re depressed, get her the cookie.”

Sophie:  (popping her head out of the card table chapel) “I’ll pray for you, Lucy!  The Lord will heal you if you only have faith. Let’s talk with Missionaries – – together!”

CW:  (to Sophie and Lucy, who both go back into the shops) Whatever.  (To Medina): “In the hospital, the ER, it was like — what do you call it? A glockenshpeil? Cuckkoo clock? The German kind where every fifteen minutes it gongs and all the little wooden shudders carved into it fly open and the little characters pop out one at a time, then go back in and pop out again, over and over ? Kind of like in circle? That’s what the ER ward was like. A line up of room doors opening and crazy patients in gowns wandering out to have some kind of human contact, be among the living, eat and talk and walk — then the staff shooed them back in their rooms, and they would go in and then pop back out again, needing to be in the traffic of the living, popping in and out — do you know what one guy said?  The staff was really down on him for “acting out.”  When transport finally showed to take him to his long-term unit, he barricaded himself in his room and shouted for his jeans and t-shirt. Over and over. Over and over staff scolded him for acting-out and said they would force him down and give him an injection to sedate him or he could walk on his own.  Security was called, other ER docs showed because he was really big and it looked tense — then he just simply said, “I’ll go — I just want my clothes, my regular clothes.” Staff scolded him he had to wear his gown to go.  And he started crying and said, “I just want to look normal.”

Scene: Silence, as they gulp, together. Medina takes a clump of fresh organic carrots from the grocery bag and breaks off the carrot tops in one wrench. She fiddles with them.

CW: I am who I say I am. Not who you — any of you’s — (she nods her head up and down the street, which is lighting up and becoming filled with pedestrians, bikers, taxis, a city bus.) say I am.

Scene: Medina stuffs the carrot tops into the empty mason jar, sarcastic (?)  and arranges them like a bouquet of flowers. The guitar music stops. That is The End.

_______________________________”Hiding,” text and stage design and music is by Heidi D. Hansen, copyright 2014-2016. email at dog.hotel.hansen@gmail.com for information.

 

Meet My Muse, Maile Lei!

maileleimuseacademyHello again from Maile Lei, Muse to Heidi and counselor pup to kids.  I hope you all have a sketchbook that goes with you everywhere and a set of colors or at least a great pen so you can sketch and write down ideas wherever you get them.  Remember my mom – Heidi – can teach you how to be more creative and takes credit cards (which are really fun to chomp, by the way) and only charges $55.00 for an hour of creativity coaching!  Muse on, peoples! — Yours sincerely, Maile Lei.

Muse Academy Storyboard: Meet the Characters and Sign Up For Your Own Muse!

muse1Heidi Hansen is the author, artist and productionist for all Muse Academy products. copyright 2015-2016.  Contact Heidi for your own creativity coaching and consultation. Pay with major credit cards and develop your own Muse at your own schedule. hhansenma@yahoo.com. muse9 muse8muse10 muse5muse4 muse6 muse2muse7 muse3This is the Muse Academy faculty who — guess how — help the remaining Muses raise the funds to stop the bank foreclosure on the Academy and fend off The Vacuus who are storming in to steal their most precious of commodity: Ideas.  Would you like to learn how to be more creative in your life?  Creative in your work process and content, marketing/advertising? in your relationships, in your mental health? Overall quality of life?  I can help with that.  My name is Heidi Hansen, I am a trauma counselor, artist and writer and offer online and in-person creativity coaching at $55.00 per hour. I am able to accept major credit cards and a brief initial interview is free.  Write to me here, or at dog.hotel.hansen@gmail.com.  My phone number is (360) 609-2646 and I am located in Vancouver, Washington, USA. Thanks, and happy musing!

Words Change Things

We become what we think. Our environment, challenges, self-regard, successes are defined by the words we use.  We can use words purposefully and with deliberate intention to create what we want within ourselves and in the world around us.maileleiwordschangethings

Here’s a meditation tip:

Write some words on post-it notes.  Words that you want to see more of in yourself and in your daily life.  Post them around areas where you spend the most time.  When you see them, say them to yourself.

And, in a meditation moment, deep breath while focusing on and repeating that one word you want the most to see happen in your self and environment.

What are those words? That I can’t tell you — they are yours to choose and change.

For mediation coaching and trauma counseling, email me at hhansenma@yahoo.com, or call me at (360) 609-2646.  My fees are reasonable and can be negotiated on a sliding scale. Thanks! – Heidi Hansen

You Are Invited – Art Open House for School Art Supplies

artsalefundraiserpic hhmlaug2016dCome visit me and Maile Lei and all this interesting art and free food next Saturday, August 6, 1016, to help stock up the art supply cupboards at Mill Plain Elementary School in their volunteer-based Art Discovery program. I’ll be welcoming guests from 1 p.m. to 6 p.m.

50% of all my originals sold from now until the first day of school goes directly to those art supplies — and I will ask you to pay that directly to Art Discovery at Mill Plain Elementary.

I’d like to meet you! Talk about art in Vancouver, toss around some ideas about how we can help our students enjoy art at school.

Thanks! See you soon!